you know what i realized… everytime a guy told me i was amazing or so beautiful or told me i want to marry u someday or talked to me about having kids and all tht jazz, if they said it to me they will say it again and again to other girls and they probably don’t remember who they even said it to like flashforward to when theyre 30 they wont remember what girl they told what to and like wow it just hit me tht like everything i believed when i was 15 are things i don’t even take a second thought at now that im basically 17. There was a girl before me they liked and maybe said similar things to them like you only really know and trust someone once u go through it all; them at their worst, them with no makeup, them showing their most scared and embarresed thoughts, they need to know about that little scar on your back from that little wrinkle on your forehead when you laugh, like you never really know someone until everything is reviled and that takes years not months and not at the age of 15-16 like what do we know about love and marriage and kids we havent even passed high school yet all we know is making mistakes and trying to fix our mistakes and sometimes not even being brave enough to fix them. My point here is that all we’ve known for our whole life is the same kind of people, with the same kind of lives leaving in the same area and they all go for what they think is the right kind of people because of what they see on the outside. Like what if we could see people from the inside out I think the good people wouldn’t have gotten hurt, in the end and if we stopped looking at someones outside to dictate there inside or assuming who and what they are I think we would be a whole lot easier on one another. I met a guy at 15 who I thought I loved him and we made these crazy promises we said we’d marry eachother… I was 15 not able to have a lerners permit to drive my car, not even graduated from grade 10, god dammit i haven’t even been around long enough to expiercence and find things I love and I thought I wanted to spend forever with the first guy who told me he wanted to… I am not saying you may not last forever with your first love maybe you will get married to them one day but please before you do make sure you have seen them happy for no reason or make sure you have seen them mad and see how they take it out on you and god dammit make sure you have seen them in their most influenced state still see if they always put you first see them drunk and sad and just make sure you know them 100% because if you dont there is a 100% chance you will find that one thing you can’t stand about the person and thats how I realized that so many people are temporary sometimes you meet a couple who aren’t … I thought he was my world and I would never get over my first true love but I did because what is love? fuck I’m now 17 and I still dont know… I wouldnt die for you I wouldnt put you before anyone else I dont know the first thing about love all I know is that I’m a teenager who at the time hated her self and he was my band aid covering up my scars of pain and self hate he said everything I should have been saying to myself and now I know that, I sometimes wish I would have known sooner. I know I am able to move on and find someone new when I hear your name I am no longer bitter… We were a little chapter in my story and I now have passed the chapter it took me a while but im a slow reader… Now I realize I can see you with someone else and I will be okay and I know if they’re is someone else for you then they’re is someone else for me. From now on i promise myself to not walk by your house unless I must I like longer walks anyways. I spent 5 years in high school and I learnt one thing and it wasn’t taught to me in class but I taught myself something I met one person and they changed my total outlook on life I made them my happiness and it almost cost me my life and my grad year but its may 14 now and there still a little bit to go in my last year… and now i notice i wasted to much time thinking of you and praying for your return that i forgot to learn how to forget you … and now I realize I have all on my own, without even noticing it. Its the end of high school and the end of you // you are in my past and I can finally say I don’t need you anymore and I believe myself I let to many people go because I was spending to much of my energy trying to get you back but now its where it changes I don’t need to focus on you and focus on how I thought it was my fault but more on how to meet new people because as we all walk out these doors for the last time ever we leave our passed behind us leave your ex boyfriend or girlfriend that hurt you at the door, leave that kid who always gave you a hard time, leave those people who didn’t appreciate your worth, leave everything and everyone who is less than what you deserve. If I can do it, you can to.
idk if this is a grad speech or a life lesson or something but yeah (via reeject)
wow I’m speechless
(via damnnbabyyy)
the US is unreal like girls cant wear shorts to school, you can literally lose your job for being gay, and unarmed black children are brutally murdered on the regular but old white ppl r still like “what a beautiful country. i can freely carry a gun for no reason and some of our mountains look like presidents. god bless”
kindness makes you the most beautiful person in the world. no matter what you look like.
I just want someone who will kiss me when I’m mad and lets me cry in front of them and buys me pizza and watches scary movies with me and holds my hand real tight even if it’s sweaty and thinks I’m beautiful no matter what I look like and lets me steal their sweaters so I can sleep with their smell on my skin and who laughs at the same things I do and just never lets me go, no matter how hard I try to push them away.
I just want someone who will kiss me when I’m mad and lets me cry in front of them and buys me pizza and watches scary movies with me and holds my hand real tight even if it’s sweaty and thinks I’m beautiful no matter what I look like and lets me steal their sweaters so I can sleep with their smell on my skin and who laughs at the same things I do and just never lets me go, no matter how hard I try to push them away.
Girl look at that body,
Girl look at that body,
Girl look at that body,
We should probably call the police who knows how long it’s been in the river.
fr33-your-mind-69 asked:
hailley answered:
Hey dudee! Thank you thank you, that means a lot to me! You’re the shit bruthaa👌 Thank you for helping me out as often as you do! Love you too bruthaaa☺️👌
-Roo😂
You’re very welcome!!! Im always here no matter what☺️ positive thoughts man, let time run its course! You’re a strong girl from what I’ve seen and u can get through anything with a few pushes from the people that love you! u myyyyy ROOO!!!! 😂
I’m so glad I’ve got you’re family to help me holy shit man👌 I can’t thank you enough bruthaa! And that’s right, ROOO!😂☺️❤️
fr33-your-mind-69 asked:
Hey dudee! Thank you thank you, that means a lot to me! You’re the shit bruthaa👌 Thank you for helping me out as often as you do! Love you too bruthaaa☺️👌
-Roo😂
fr33-your-mind-69 asked:
hailley answered:
Hey dudee! Thank you thank you, that means a lot to me! You’re the shit bruthaa👌 Thank you for helping me out as often as you do! Love you too bruthaaa☺️👌
-Roo😂
You’re very welcome!!! Im always here no matter what☺️ positive thoughts man, let time run its course! You’re a strong girl from what I’ve seen and u can get through anything with a few pushes from the people that love you! u myyyyy ROOO!!!! 😂
I’m so glad I’ve got you’re family to help me holy shit man👌 I can’t thank you enough bruthaa! And that’s right, ROOO!😂☺️❤️
You’ll always have us ☺️ head up roo 😂
Thank you buddyyy😂😊
